3 things I’ve got into these days

I thought I was a kind of person who valued the mentality rather than physicality. Reading was one of the most pleasant and enjoyable activities in my life. Writing was a torture to gave me an utmost liberation. My life revolved around reading, writing and making contents.

Now my daily life is quite different from my days when I started my career. I am running a small publishing company with my husband. But it is not so demanding because we don’t have any desire to get money. Actually it is the most difficult thing to get money through selling books! As everybody knows, most people hate reading and they like watching!

I’d like to say about three things that I’ve got into these days.

One is Yoga

I do yoga everyday.
As soon as I wake up, the very first thing is brushing my teeth and rolling out the mat. I feel my body carefully and follow the lead of the breath. My body condition is not the same everyday. The moment to meet my body is very crucial for the day ahead of me. How I meet my body decides how it will become and what it looks like.

After work, I go to yoga class at 6:30. That’s the reason why I am a little late to the meeting every time. I’d like to say I apologize for my perpetual lateness at this moment. However, I wouldn’t change it for anything else. Because yoga is precious more than anything in my life. As I put it, I was good at using my head instead of my body. I thought mentality was the very thing that differs me from others and other lives.

But I realize that I am not thinking with my head but with my body. Body is the tool to connect to myself, others and the universe. Now I fully realize how important it is to have good health after I lost it. As most people do, I did my best for my life. To get there, I sacrificed my health for money, status and reputation. It was not just to be rich. I wanted to fulfill my lifetime goal.

There must be a reason why I was born, I thought.
I wanted to reveal and accomplish the goal no one gave it to me.

But who set the goal? Who gave me the agenda?

As I ignored the voice of my body, I just pursued the intangible goal. Luckily enough, I don’t have to work anymore thanks to my previous hard work and my patience. Even though people don’t like reading, I might be able to publish if I want to. However, I don’t want to publish as much as I used to. Insead, I fell in love with drawing and painting.

I am thrilled when I pick up the pen or stretch an easel!

White paper and canvas make me crazy with excitement. I cannot explain exactly why I am amused with artwork though. That is the thing I really want to do without monetary concerns or career goals or even work pressure.

The freedom of doing what I really want to do is the purest pleasure

Seeing is thinking, sensing, and behaving.
To draw well, I feel like I have to unlearn what I’ve learned over a long time. That is why I am liberated when I draw.

There are so many spoken/unspoken rules in every area to be the best from listicles to youtube clips.

But, there is no such thing as “must”.

We just make our own ways.
Yoga is a way to seek what is already within us.
When we are connected with everything in the universe, everything can inspire us. When we put down our ego, forget instructions, and unconcern ourselves about how to be successful, We can be more creative and vigorated!

That is the nature of living creatures!

English is the tool to tackle down my habitual pattern of thinking. When I face problems, I usually start writing them in English. It gives me time and space to think differently, most of all, it pushes me to find another way to solve it . Because when I am given unfamiliar tools in my hands, it wakes my all five senses.

I am not going to repeat the mistakes that I had made before.

I am not going to follow the voice of the so-called “successful man”.

I’ll follow my own voice.

I will prioritize my body above all.

Our life’s too short to torture ourselves.
I’d like to enjoy my journey with you guys.

Von voyage!